Final Fantasy : Advent Children

Friday, April 20, 2007

Me.broken-hearted.Nah.impossible.

before i fall in love again - Coco Lee

i read a post from angez's blog.
i read it from somewhere else before.
a quote.
but it pierces my heart just to think of it.

it was about.
your wife being your best friend.
there should be no one as impt as your significant other,
who will share your life with you.

i asked you to be my best fren once.
you said you would be there.
you promised forever.
you didnt stay...

now i sit here.
u want to be frens.
i cant do.it.
u were my joy.but u left halfway...

during psychology lesssons.
they mentioned there is no such thing as expecting things to happen.
cos u cant expect anything...
i cant blame you.

i just wished i understood.
so badly.
why.
you discarded me so fast.

but i wont ask you.
there is nothing on earth u could say.
that would bring me comfort.

every song.
game
lecture
talk.

had u involved.
now i have to uninvolve you.to continue with life.
its miserable.
i know nuts about love.probably thats why it hurt so much.

i have a few broken-hearted frens too...
i cant tell them it doesnt hurt.
cos telling them it doesnt.is a lie.
i dun even know wad to say to them.

there isnt enough alchohol or cigarettes.
in this world to forget this.
i owe too much to give up living.
but its turning empty.

and as those old people say.
time heals all.
ya shaddup.
i believe you.

its amazing u could hurt me so much.
cos i let myself get hurt.
i whine like a girl.
but if i turn cold.and emotionless.then it isnt me anymore.

alrite.its broken already.
lets go find the next one to hurt it.
goodbye my thoughts.
for now.

"stay there forever for me,trapped in memories"
-cloud (fantasy VII)

Cloud Forgiven | 11:05 PM