Final Fantasy : Advent Children

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

a little trip around the world.

holiday - Boys Like Girls
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When I was younger I used to be wild
As wild as an elephant's child
No one could hold me down
No one could keep me around
Now it's your turn, take a shot
Baby show me everything that you got
Maybe you can keep me alive
Maybe you can get in my mind
But it's only a matter of time

Before I run far away
I need to take a holiday
Maybe it's a fall from grace
I gotta find a new place
A holiday
I'll set off on a new chase
I gotta see a new face
I need to take a holiday

My father, he was always wise
As wise as an elephant's eyes
He couldn't hold me down
He couldn't keep me around
So are you gonna take your shot?

It's the only one that you got
Maybe I'll go out on a limb
Maybe I'll jump in for a swim
When the lights go dim

You know I'll run far away
I need to take a holiday
Maybe it's a fall from grace
I gotta find a new place
A holidayI'll set off on a new chase
I gotta see a new face
I need to take a holiday
(Need to take a holiday)

Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa

A new start
I've broken too many hearts
And I don't have any clue where to go
I don't know
But maybe I'll be back someday after my holiday

When I was younger I used to be wild
As wild as an elephant's child
And I don't think I'll ever change
I think I'm gonna stay the same

I'll run far away
I need to take a holiday
(need to take a holiday)
Maybe it's a fall from grace
I gotta find a new place
A holidayI'll set off on a new chase
(set off on a new chase)
I gotta see a new face
I need to take a holiday

A new start
I've broken too many hearts
And I don't have any clue where to go
I don't knowBut maybe
I'll be back someday after my holiday

All of the wasted time
The hours that were left behind
The answers that we'll never find
They don't mean a thing tonight
[www.lyricsmania.com]
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strangely i have heard this song about at least 80 times this 2 weeks.

word from blogger:"hello.sorry been busy =p.didnt have time to blog."

2 camps. many meetings. many self-reflections.many broken moments.
many laughs.almost NO tears.no self-reprimands. and some better sleep. =p.

i needed that song to run away.
i had to find where i all began.where i stopped.
wad was the process.
and how to get it running again.

hahax. tell you the truth.
i found my beginnings.
i am happy.
i found another path.

maybe i can veer off that sad road at last.
i found where BUM used to stand.
and i stood where he used to stand.
and i cried where he use to cry.

its like i went into the past.
dug the grave.
and went lived the past
and walked out with a new life.
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camps were great.
i made some closer frens.
CYF. was good.
but Mustard Seed was GREAT.

and to think i lived so much in the past.
that i forgot my future.
hahax. i am not completely cured =p.
but i have the remedy in my palm.

i shall blog MS camp another time.
as well as (at last) the story i wrote for someone
around 1 1/2 months ago. =p

but i made a great fren.
she needs music as much as i do.
hahax.
and she has a great sense of fun.
i shall blog about her soon.

i unconciously.withdrew my hand of friendship.to some.
some u know,some u have never met.
and part of it eats me.
to be so life-taking.
to nver share my life experience with them again.
issit irreversible?
i dunno.
thats wad bugged me.
to called to be a loving person to all.
a friend in need.
salt of the earth.light of the world.
yet.
i walked away from some.
cos i was hurt.
and i didnt wanna fight for friendship.

i have some people.
i have not said hi 2 for years.
its cos i chose not too.
thats my crime.my sins.my guilt.
and wads worse.i send more to that category every year.

and much worse.
when i heard that some frens.fell.
when i wasnt there.to help them.
and they couldnt find a loving hand to hold them up.
no one to be there for them,
no one who cared.
and i wasnt there for them.
in their hour of need.

that was CAMP for ME.
i realised.when i chose to walk away.
i fell alone.and i left my frens to fall alone as well.
"i was not called to be sucessful,i was called to be faithful"
- mother theresa.

camp was one of the most beautiful things.
that happened this 2 weeks.
my past.present and future.
were all linked there.

this is the spot.where BUM.found his soul.
. .
. .
. -------------marks the spot
. .
. .

the little world around me grew sad,
when i was too tired to care,
and hopefully the damage wasnt so bad,
that there isnt anything left to repair.

-the little brother u always wanted to smack,
but you couldnt seem to catch.
"lil^bum".

Cloud Forgiven | 9:12 AM

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

And i'm starting to believe that danger's never near, When Joanna is here.

Little Joanna -McFly

hahax. its been a while since i blogged.
busy as a bee.
and its 11.06pm.
still waiting to use the shower.

just came home...
as u can see i am busy as usual?
tonight wasnt poor time management.
it was church...hahax.

had 2 ICAs. which my lecturers liked.
veri happy. its so hard to get people to love your work.
of course.my ICA group are SMART people.
and efficient too!. bwahahahah.

*currently dancing to the song*
its really nice.
rather light-hearted after all that heavy duty.
i have to suffer!

6 new dota heroes are OUT!.
exciting! new opportunites!
its like LIFE is changing since i last blogged.
so many things.

went to cut hair...
alrite like.
i still look like a durian.
and a rambutan(pimples)....ugly like hell...me of course.hahax.
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tired. is a certainty.
trouble with my sleep.
it appears i am still bothered.
BUT. on the cheerful side.

i seem to have forgotten some things.
hmmm...maybe,maybe not.
but it doesnt matter.
it had to happen.

and i am in lurve.............
lol...
nah.
not really.

i cant fall into that 4 letter word.
sadly.maybe, MAYBE NOT.
playing lan.going out.being busy.
is kinda free-ing.i suppose.

if i didnt know better...i would say heartbroken is
the best state for me! hahax.
cos i aint obligated to care about anyone.
and i aint obligated to be someone i am not.

*still dancing*

sorry no funny quips for you. tonight.
dun have time to recollect wad happened the last few days.
so just pure spontanoeus blogging.
GUILTY!

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sometimes i am a sad case.
its like i have an illness i may never recover from.
i placed a wall.
and i didnt even realised i placed it there.

i tot i threw away such things.
but it appears.
that sometimes.
it just comes back to you.
when u fall.

why AR! why like dat.
oh dear.everyone does that some time or other...
so just take a CHILL PILL.
and dance to the song u are listening to.
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my holidays havent arrived. and i am due for
1 camp.
2 retreats....
and one fund raising...
and i onli got 2 weeks.

LOL.holidays?!! right.
not happening.
hahax.issit alrite to say i am interested in some girls?
even tho......
it shouldnt be allowed to happen.
maybe cause i am lonely in that aspect.
and i dun want to use a girl.
just to feel up some space.in my void.

cos u gotta respect em ladies u know?
u cant throw them away when u bored of them.
u are supposed to cherish them till u drop dead.
lol....all the CONDOR HEROES fault la.

i was watching it that day on chn U.
the xiao long nu said.(she is damn hot btw)
"if u loved your wife so dearly,why are u forcing me to marry you?"
" if u love her, someone else cant replace her"
" why dun u just build a statue of her?"

its confusing me...
which is wrong.
loving a memory in a statue?
loving someone else new?

like both sounds alrite to me?
i doubt there is a right or wrong for this...

BTW i realised something scary...
i have a thing for older women...
no la...its just that i meet more of the older ones.
cos of my abnormal bday.its a batch thing.

i have met a few cute younger ones.
HAIYO.
i know so many wonderful ladies.
hahax...*starts groaning*
i am turning desperate...
or something...
kkz. blog something more serious later!

this is for my neh neh and nana:
She will always be my sunkissed trampoline,
She goes up and down in my heart,
Turned into jelly beans
And I'm starting to believe that danger's never near,
When Joanna is here! - mcfly

Cloud Forgiven | 8:05 AM